Road to Infinity

National Gallery of Victoria Architecture Commission

I had the craziest dream the other day where Taylor Swift was the wife of a cafe owner..? 

Somehow in that plot, in my dream, I was on a mission to find something that would solve all the world's problems; world peace, climate change, poverty, everything. And I found it. I found the thing that would solve all of our problems. 

Once I found it, the world was spinning like a cliche slow motion scene in a movie where time is slowed and moving into an alternative reality. When I landed though, reality was exactly the same. 

It was disorientating, disappointing and underwhelming. 

I put in so much time, effort and energy to find an answer or solution only for nothing to happen.

Even when I woke up I was confused and disappointed - if I found the solution to solving all the problems in the world, why wasn't the world 'perfect'? 

Looking back at my life, everything that I did was with the end destination of a 'better world' in mind. What exactly is that better world though? 

The thing I realised is that the world will always have problems. The problems will just look different as existing ones are worked towards/solved and new ones are created as the world changes. 

I don't know how to feel about it to be honest; always on the road to the destination of improve something in the world, but the destination is always moving further away or to a different place, going on the road to infinity. 

This fact brings something unsettling and comforting at the same time - change and improvements are always constant, it's just what it looks like will always look differently. 

I guess all that we can ask of ourselves is to do our best to leave this life, putting the world in a better shape than when we entered it. 

Written on: December 13, 2022